bOut Qin de Life

2005-02-02T17:52:00.000-08:00

finally..! sooOoo loOoong neva online liaoz. haiz. my life change alot. becum so stress. hav to work n study. hav to see the stoOpid biased manager at work. hav to see jerome tan n benedict keh in school. wth. cant they juz get out of my life.?! haiz. make my life so miserable. cant even work and study in peace. haiz. dis yr N level le. scared cannot make it. hmm.. realli muz study hard le. hmm.. haiz. y always regret thingz tt i did.! he ar.. make mi like him so much and now he treat mi dis way. jus dun understand him. even his buddy also dun understand him. jus wad does he wan..?! wad is he tinkin..?! he make mi sooOo confused. ppl all tell mi to forget him, giv up him.. i wish. but it isnt easy to jus forget someone.. haiz.. jus wad he wan..?! treat mi n jie dis way..! exactly the same..! like did it purposely de lorz. haiz.

the ShutteR..

2004-11-23T18:33:00.000-08:00

hmm.. long time neva online le` haiz.. ytd went to watch 'shutter'.. so fun sia` the show so scary sia` scream like hell.. lolz.. nat n mi was like "ahHhHh..!! i dun wanna watch liao..! can we go..?!" lolz.. so fun sia` den when at the toilet part, we all luff like hell.. heh heh.. such a cute show.. can make us luff n scream.. hehez.. nice show..

so sian

2004-10-17T15:25:00.000-07:00

hmm.. wad to write nehz..? eh` oh ya` now workin le` yeah..! can buy wadever i wan` but veri tired sia` haiz` holiday cumin nearre n nearer le` no need to see ah tan for 2 months` wahaha` hmm` so sianzZz` now at my stead hse` hmm` wait..! dun tink y y ar` my stead is jean` a gal` hmm` wait` dun tink y y again` i m not les` wahaha` hehez` veri lame hor` hehez` got nth to do marhz` hmm` realli cant tink of anything to write le` buaizZz` huggies`

eh..

2004-10-13T18:16:00.000-07:00

haiz.. so sian. miss him alot. long time neva online le. duno wad to write here. haiz. haiz. haiz. dis world is juz so unfair. sumtimez realli veri envious of peepz round mi. but cant do anything. hmm.. exams le. everyone muz study hard kiez. (for those who r havin exam now) and horz. dear.. (duno whether my dear got read not) erm.. sorry. for wadever thingyz i did. i noe i tok to u veri rude. but cuz i m using prepaid card marhz. den muz tok fast fast. and tt day when u msg mi. its not tt i wanna tok to u tt way de. but tt day i already veri pek chek le. plus the way u tok oso veri unpolite marhz. u noe i owayz 'duno duno' de marhz. do u realli wan our friendship to end juz lyk tt? i m so sorry. i noe i tok till veri harsh. but.. haiz....

2004-10-11T13:33:00.000-07:00

ahhhhH... long time neva online le. cuz of my stupid com. cannot online liaoz. *sob sob* haiz. recently many thingyz happened. family. relationship. friendship. haiz. so suay...

2004-08-31T21:54:00.000-07:00

*argh* i feel so... *argh* if onli words can express. haiz` duno wads got into mi recently. so many thingy happened. mi n him now is lyk.. drifting apart. well~ or maybe i m tinkin too much. n i felt lyk everything is goin against mi. everyone ------- mi. n tt... *argh* tinkin bout tt makes mi wanna... *argh* i feel so sian bout life le. y m i born to dis world?! wanna hav a long sleep. haiz` a few days ago.. i was sleepin. n in the middle of the nite. i heard a lot of noises in my room. is lyk many ppl is in my room tokin n laughin. but i cant see. as i m facin the other side. i tried to turn around but i cant. i was tinkin whether m i dreamin. n i try to wake up but cant. i keep tryin n tryin. n in the end i woke up. okie. everything is fine. so i continued to sleep. *argh* the same thing happened. repeating. cant wake up again. so again. i try n try n try. well~ ya.. i woke up. n i m scared.. suddenly hav the arge to msg him n tell him everything. but was so late. so.. i kept my eyes opened. tinkin bout wad happened tt time. tt time~ sumthing similar happened. now is the (7 yue), tt time was (3 yue). tt time i was sleepin. n i heard noises. children tokin n laughin. *they* kept beatin mi. well~ i cant see it as the pillow is coverin it. so i woke up. okie. nth. everything is fine. so i continue sleepin. well~ again~ repeating~ haiz. ya. i was scared of cuz. den at nite i was using the com. suddenly. (blackout) again n again. for a few times. and.. blah blah blah.. tinkin bout dis make mi creep. shall stop here. haiz~

sad.. sob sob

2004-08-30T20:12:00.000-07:00

haiz` well~ wad to say? wad happen to my dear, dar n mi recently? my dear. she's hurt. deeply hurt. dear~ dun cry le. n realli sorry bout juz now. i dunno y i will cal u. i dunno wtf m i doin. haiz` i dunno wad to write. my mind is... blank? duno. *confused* i realli dunno wad he's tinkin. haiz` now we r lyk so weird. or i tink too much le?! haiz` ytd went to westmall wif dear von. watched '13 going on 30'. so damn nice. and it made mi cry. gd. lolz. hmm. well~ tt show is juz so damn nice. juz now went to plaza wif my god kor. luckily got him. if not dunno who to tok to. thx kor. n sorry tt i made u cum down tok tok den go home. lolz. waste ur time. paiseh paiseh. haiz` realli hate myself alot. i sux! wad happen to mi sia?! did i changed alot?! or is it my temper?! why i feel tt everyone h--- mi?! or m i juz being sensitive?! i realli duno wad to do. wad happen to mi?! my mind is... confused?! feel lyk burstin out cryin. ppl said tt cryin out will make u feel beta. ya i agree. but.. i juz ku bu chu. feel so xin ku. can anything or anyone make mi cry?! tt day yw so called insult my lao gong (fengqi). i was lyk so damn angry. tt we both neva tok for a while. well~ who ask u to insult him. hmm` but pls larhz. even if u dun lyk him neva mind. no1 can force u marhz. but u dun hav to insult marhz. hurts mi u noe. *although i used to do dis, but now not le, realise my mistake le* haiz~ my life sux larhz.

bout today`

2004-08-25T17:58:00.000-07:00

hmm~ today go sch` luckily ah tan neva scold mi` but he catch mi fer not tuckin in my blouse` actually he considered veri gd to mi le` cuz he said, 'siew khim ah. ur shirt ah. wan mi to tell u how many times. die die oso wun change de. i oready take action on students le. u beta go tuck in'.. lac horz` but still` hav to tuck in le` cuz mr tok oso catch mi fer my shirt` hmm~ today in sch not feeling well sia` stomachache till i nearly cry` den went to office to apply e oilment` but still veri pain` *dotzZz* yeah~! tonite~! omg~! a few more hrs to go` daniel zhang feng qi` *ahHhhHh* omg~! but veri fast will be over le` *sobzZz* tml still got two period maths` *sianzZz* 4M = Maths Made Me Mad` *lame horz* but actually maths quite fun lorhz` as long as ah tan dun angry can le` he lyks to act cute` but seriously he veri cute larhz` dunno wad to do` feelin so sian rite now` later still hav to buy my own dinner` *sian 1/2* lazy sia` haiz` tink i stop here le lorhz` dunno wad to write oready` so~ u guys take care ya` *hugGies*

wtf larhz`

2004-08-24T19:40:00.000-07:00

haiz~ today when the alarm clock rang` i press e button` and guess wad` when i woke up` e sky is oready so bright` haiz` neva go sch again` wth` *bang the wall* and today our class is havin a maths retest` wtf` i m gonna die tml` cant continue my life lyk dis` oways absent myself!!!! >.< gotta change dis f**king habit` oops` *lost control* and wad excuse m i givin ah tan for being absent?! shit larhz` *bang the wall non-stop* haiz~ feel lyk everything is goin against mi` and y i haven recover frm my sickness?! *cough cough* hav been sick fer bout 1 month le` wtf` *sniff sniff* waiting fer tml nite` cuz got daniel zhang feng qi on tv` e firework festival thingy bahz` or wadever national day thingy de larhz` i wan tml nite` i dun wan tml morning` cuz i will die!! ah tan~!! rao le wo ba` i will change e f**king habit de` giv mi sum time` i will force myself to wake up and go sch de` haiz~ how to put e music thingy fer my blog?! how to put pics?! how to make e chatterbox thingy?! haiz~! wad shl i do?! whenever i go others de blog` i feel so envious` cuz they've got such a nice blog` and mi?! *pui* dis kinda blog?! words words n more words~! haiz~

2004-08-23T22:45:00.000-07:00

haloz guys` mi created a new blog le` cancelled e previous one cuz was kinda boring` rite~? n dis new blog is still veri boring` rite~? cuz i dunno how to put pics n all tt` i m learnin` giv mi sum time ok~? erm~ eh~ oh ya` i miss daniel zhang feng qi n zax wang renfu alot sia` long time neva see em le` hmm~ my life~? eh` recently got one *ahem* stepped into my life` hmm` love him lots` although i neva realli show it` did i~? hmm` i've got nth to say le` still hav to iron my uniform` *sobzZz* stop here le lorhz` buaizZz~